Since becoming pregnant with my first daughter, I’ve been told several times by many different people, “cherish every moment, it goes by fast”. I even find myself saying that to my friends who are new mom’s. Although it can be annoying to hear over and over (because it’s true but not always helpful), it can be easy to forget when we’re caught up in our everyday lives.
Each day has its own unique challenges, it has its ups and its downs. There are days that I don’t want to end and days that I can’t wait to be over. There are days when I have a ton to do and my daughters want me to play games, reads books and have dance parties. I can get so caught up in the right now, I lose sight of the big picture. It’s easy for me to tell my girls not right now, I have to do the laundry, clean the kitchen, make dinner or I’m just so frustrated with the antics of my 2 and 4 year old that I need a break. But the truth is, that will all be there after I play a game or read a few books. And these adorable, loud, opinionated, strong-willed girls don’t mean to push me to my limits on purpose, or do they?!
When I look at the past four and half years, I feel like my first daughter was born, I blinked and now here we are. I don’t feel as if I have missed out on anything. I have always been very involved in my daughters lives, but I do feel like it has gone by very quickly. I don’t have tiny babies anymore and it’s a bittersweet feeling. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t miss living on a few hours of sleep, or having the cashier at Sprouts tell me that I have spit up running down the back of my shirt. But I do miss rocking a tiny baby to sleep, nursing (yep, I miss it), the sleepy smiles, and tiny everything! The saying, the days are long but the years are short, is so true.
I never felt time flying by, until becoming a parent. I’ve never felt so emotionally and physically drained for extended periods of time. I’ve never loved so hard with expecting nothing in return, and I’ve never felt so much pride and joy from looking at two human beings day in and day out. (No matter how irritated I may get.) Later in life I don’t want to feel like I missed out on this time because things needed to get done around the house, or I was too busy, or too tired. Obviously we need a break from time to time, but there needs to be balance.
Our kids are only small once and we will never get this time back. So I am really trying to make a conscious effort to live in the now. Because my daughters won’t always be begging me to have a dance party or play princesses, and the thought of that makes me sad. The laundry will always be there and no one is going to die of starvation if dinner gets pushed back 20 minutes. So yes sweetie, I will play your game (even if it is for the hundredth time this week). Because the years are short and I don’t want to miss out on anything!